Lack of men, Saints x 2

So, today, I realized I barely have any guys in my life. We all know that I am not typically a fan of girls. However, I have a couple of good solid female friendships. Then I have quite a few female acquaintanceship.

But, the men. They are the lacking. There are seriously only 2 that I do things with anymore. My guy friends either don't live here, have gotten serious GFs that steal their time away, or we've just grown apart due to lack of effort on both parts.

Now, to all of you guys who are my friends, I am still friends with you. But those moments of closeness seem few and far between. And this makes me incredibly sad.

The other problem is that over the course of this past year, I've met quite a few awesome guys. But when I'll try to become their friend, they act like I am hitting on them. This is really frustrating to me, because any of you that know me know that I'm most likely not. Sure, one or two have been cool, but for the most part, I just want a friend.
Maybe I'll start telling ppl I'm dating someone again?

Ugh. Either way, it's really frustrating.

Today, a guy was going to tell a joke and he was like "No, it's a guy joke, I'm not going to tell you." Finally, he told it and was like "I'm used to being told I'm disgusting and getting a slap to the face."
Wow.
Has my personality changed so much that it makes me seem more opposed to that? Or is it just my lack of joking in general? Or my lack of many guy friends?


I dunno, but it is enough to make someone feel a little sad.

Also, my job has taught me something about myself lately.
I'm still more judgemental than I would like to be. I really don't like people very much. And that upsets me. I people watch a lot at work, we're in the perfect location. So, as I do, I see people walk by and most of the time when I recognize someone, my thoughts are "Ugh, don't really like you." Unless it is a friend. And far far far too many strangers will walk by and my thoughts are "Ugh. Wouldn't like you. Don't really like you so much. Sigh."

This makes me sad.
I don't want to think these things.....

But I guess at least I am giving ppl a chance now...

In other news, I have a headache and I just slept for like 6 hours and it was awesome.

I'm hungry and a little tried and my head hurts. My chest also feels as though I smoked an entire pack of cigarettes earlier today or yesterday. That sucks.

Ok, on to the saints.. You get two tonight because I could not post last night.

St Anthony of Padua

Patronage:
against shipwrecks; against starvation; against starving; American Indians; amputees; animals; asses; barrenness; boatmen; Brazil; diocese of Beaumont, Texas; domestic animals; elderly people; expectant mothers; faith in the Blessed Sacrament; Ferrazzano, Italy; fishermen; harvests; horses; Lisbon, Portugal; lost articles; lower animals; mail; mariners; diocese of Masbate, Philippines; oppressed people; Padua, Italy; paupers; poor people; Portugal; pregnant women; sailors; seekers of lost articles; shipwrecks; starvation; starving people; sterility; swineherds; Tigua Indians; travel hostesses; travellers; watermen

• Anthony's wealthy family wanted him to be a great nobleman, but for the sake of Christ he became a poor Franciscan. Priest.

• Shipwrecked at Sicily

• Lived in a cave at San Paolo leaving only to attend Mass and sweep the nearby monastery.

Prayers:

A Prayer to St Anthony:
Saint Anthony of Padua, you endured much discouragement in your life before finding your calling. help us to find patience in our own lives, and to trust God to lead us where we need to go. You preached by example; help us show others through examnple the truth of our faith. Amen.

Prayer for Lost Articles:
Saint Anthony, perfect imitator of Jesus, who received from God the special power of restoring lost things, grant that I may find {mention your petition} which has been lost. As least restore to me peace adn tranquility of mind, the loss of which has afflicted me even more than my material loss. To this favor I ask another of you: that I may always remain in possession of the true good that is God.Let me rather lose all things than lose God, my supreme good. Let me never suffer the loss of my greatest treasure, eternal life with God. Amen.

Though, I know it as "Tony, Tony, turn around. Where is my [what what} to be found?"

This is a Good one. Example of Humanity:
Dear Saint Anthony, after all these years in the school of Christ, I still haven't learned the lesson of true humility. My feelings are easily ruffled. Quick to take offense, I am slow to forgive. Saint Anthony, Example of Humility, teach me the importance and necessity of this Christian virtue. In the presence of Jesus, who humbled Himself and whom the Father exalted, remember also these special intentions of mine. [name them]

Saint Cecilia

Patronage
Albi France, composers, martyrs, music, musicians, musical instrument makers, archdiocese of Omaha, Nebraska, poets, singers

Noteworthies:

• Vowed her virginity to God, but her parents married her to Valerian of Trastevere. She told her new husband that she was accompanied by an angel, but in order to see it, he must be purified. He agreed to the purification, and was baptised; returning from the ceremony, he found her in prayer accompanied by a praying angel. The angel placed a crown on each of their heads, and offered Valerian a favor; the new convert asked that his brother be baptised.

• The Acts of Cecilia has the following: "While the profane music of her wedding was heard, Cecilia was singing in her heart a hymn of love for Jesus, her true spouse."

• Died martyred c.117; suffocated for a while, and when that didn't kill her, she was beheaded; grave was discovered in 817, and her body removed to the church of Saint Cecilia in Rome. tomb was opened in 1599, and her body found to be incorrupt

Prayer to Saint Cecilia
Dear Saint Cecilia, one thing we know for certain about you is that you became a heroic martyr in fidelity to your divine Bridegroom. We do not know that you were a musician but we are told that you heard Angels sing. Inspire musicians to gladden the hearts of people by filling the air with God's gift of music and reminding them of the divine Musician who created all beauty. Amen.